The push and pull of crazy-horse-girl emotions vs adult-responsibility with regard to Prair continue to wage war in my brain.
The oscillations are still a bit wild - but it seems like I am settling more and more on the idea of marketing Prairie as a broodmare.
Staring at her (most likely) retirement from any sort of significant work- I wish more than ever that a) horses were cheaper or b) we had that cute little farm with a couple empty stalls.
Either of those scenarios would make is so, so, so easy to keep Prair without any consideration. But lacking either of those particular realities, it's hard for me to feel good about keeping Prair as a pasture puff when I know that I want to pursue my goals with Windsor and also with our real life human kiddo too.
So I have been doing a lot of thinking.
I've started perusing a few broodmare groups on FB, and one casual comment in response to a want ad actually garnered several inquiries which served to remind me that Prairie's bloodlines are rather desirable - especially with her history of carrying one foal and a successful ET for another..
I am not a breeder. I don't really know a lot of breeders, and I definitely have never rehomed one of my own horses with the sole purpose of "broodmare."
That is to say, I am not super educated about how this process works, what makes a top notch broodmare vs a retired old nag that doesn't have any other jobs left to do...
I do know that if I do let Prair go to a new home I will be ridiculously picky about it, and I'd rather keep her on the payroll for a while and feel fabulous about where she goes, than move her out to the highest/fastest bidder.
So, I'm in no man's land.
But I am thinking about it. I think I'll wallow in my own thoughts a bit longer and perhaps try a formal listing toward the end of the month - but who knows. That could change.
As part of my thinking-not-actually-out-loud process, I did compile a short video with a variety of footage. It's hard to make a "sale video" with footage that was never intended to be used as such - But Prair's pretty, and I figure if people are looking at her with a breeder's eye they really don't care how horrid my eq is or how ugly part of my dressage test looks if they get a sense of who she is and what she's got to offer as a mama.....
If nothing else it's a fun summary of what she's done over the last couple of years...
The only thing I didn't include was footage of her two kiddos.
Felt like it wasn't mine to share at this point. Though I have started to collect info on both her babies along with some video links to prove how gorgeous they are. (Her Sir Donnerhall colt is LOVELY. holy moly.)
Looking at his footage always flares up my own desire to keep Prairie and breed her, but without the whole a) horses cheaper and b) own farm thing, that's probably best left as a pipe dream for now...