|I really like this pic with the reflection.. Pia x 2!|
I've had the pleasure of uttering the fateful phrase "it's not you it's me" to more than a couple of boys in my time (who hasn't). I think I usually worded it slightly better.. or at least masked it a bit to save some dignity and pride, but the message was the same.... a relationship wasn't working, and in my effort to take some of the blame/own up to my disinterest, I usually went the "it's not you, it's me" route. In reality I knew that it was definitely also "them." I mean, if they were magically different, maybe my interest would have changed too, but I digress....
After watching Supermom with the P monster last night, it's very, very clear to me that:
It's not Pia, it's me.
Long story short, Supermom got a great ride out of her. Not picture perfect by any means, but the goal was "forward" and to maintain the appropriate number of hooves on the ground. Both of which were accomplished with flying colors. Incidentally, these are both goals that I've failed pretty hard at in recent weeks... Which makes a couple of things very clear:
1) This is almost ALL attitude
2) Pia totally has my number
3) I've allowed the amplification of her outbursts.
On one hand it's a relief to know that the mare isn't totally batshit crazy. If she had been up in the air and all around town with Supermom, I'd be worrying that I had a totally insane, dangerous, wild animal on my hands. As it stands, I apparently have a very pretty, extremely clever, somewhat bitchy animal on my hands... which is better.... (I think)....
On the other hand, it is somewhat demoralizing to realize that I'm pretty much to blame. Yes, the mare is very smart. She is more clever than anything I've had the pleasure of working with, and I still think that the comparison to a velociraptor is totally valid. She's smart enough that I should cut myself some slack, but it still doesn't make me feel great. The mare is also sassy. I think this goes hand in hand with smart, and hand in hand with velociraptor... but it's a bit different. She tests, and tests... and tests... and its frustrating that while I feel I have drawn hard lines with her, apparently they haven't been hard enough, or drawn fast enough.
(In related news... I think that this sign will be going on Pia's paddock in the near future.. so we can track our "progress")
Well, I think (aside from getting the Regumate if my vet EVER returns me phone calls..) I do my best to emulate Supermom's ride last night. I'll recount her ride in more detail tomorrow (when all my video is up and online so you can see for yourself that the mare does indeed go forward and keep the appropriate hooves on the ground.
Basically my gameplan can be reduced to a few simple steps.
1) Back to basics. We're going return to the mindset of "one month under saddle" and take away all the potential battles of the movements and work that I've been asking Pia to perform. I need to re-establish my authority and that needs to start at the beginning.
2) Specifically... GO FORWARD. Lunge forward, ride forward, start in the canter, GO FORWARD. Eliminate the stick, and be done with it. We aren't going to be able to do anything if we are constantly getting stuck every time we try something new.
3) Stick with it. I know my resolve has been wavering a bit day to day, but seeing P work like a real horse tells me that its an obtainable goal, and I owe it to myself (and P) to keep hacking away at it. I do need to figure out at what point (should I still not see supermom results) I call a spade a spade, but I haven't thought about that yet.
So, video tomorrow (I promise). in the meantime, here's some more stills from the ride. You can clearly see that P is moving and that the hooves are where they should be. Fun FUN
|CAAANTER! This is how Supermom started out...|
|This is the trot we ended with. Still a bit tense, but FORWARD and reaching (kinda)|